Meet –TrueCourage–

A fiery ‘Fuck you!’ Those are the words that –TrueCourage– recommends saying, but we’ll get to the ‘why’ of that later!

–TrueCourage– is a 23 year old woman, who has always felt as though something wasn’t quite right…that something was missing. However, it was an ‘inappropriate’ relationship with an older man (she was only 15, and he was 38) that made her realize just how kinky she was. It was her first real relationship, and while it was certainly an ‘odd relationship’…it’s one she says she doesn’t regret. “It helped me along the way to who I am in my kink life now, and helped me to discover and open myself up to the possibilities.” A relationship of that nature certainly is not something she’d recommend, but it’s a part of her past and she considers herself an open book.

From the beginning of her journey into kink, she realized that she identified as being submissive at heart. She says, “It’s just where I get the most pleasure, and where I long to be. In it’s most basic form it means letting go of that part of you that is scared, alone, vulnerable, and weak.  It means letting that other person fill that void and make you whole, making you a stronger person than you ever thought you could be. It means being able to trust someone so much that you’ll give up the ability to make decisions regarding aspects of your life for that person. Having your whole world revolving around that person, and having their life revolve around you is such an intense bond!”

When forced to further identify her place in the kink world she says, “Considering myself to also be a masochist, I realize I have quite a warped way of how I observe pain and feeling it.  I think I also identify as a sado because of my love of pain in all ways.  I’ve always been fascinated by pain itself.”

Roughly nine months ago –TrueCourage– began a relationship with Vamplord.  Together, they’ve been experiencing a relationship which she describes as being “in the early stages of a deep and loving D/s relationship.”  While Vamplord has been in open/poly relationships previously, this is her first foray into an open relationship.  She admits that it’s been challenging at times. “Sometimes its very hard for me to deal with normal issues.  I am not a jealous person by nature, but I can have my moments just like any girl!”

Recently she has been interested in exploring her dominant side, and is currently looking for someone to explore that aspect of her life with. When asked how she manages switching ‘modes’ while in a D/s relationship she replied, “It can be tough to be in a dominant headspace and switch back to submissive when I get home to my Sir.”   She wears a military style dog tag that Vamplord gave her, every hour of every day.

“I never take it off. The thought of going a day without wearing it makes me anxious. It has a great calming effect and is a way to keep him with me at all times, and feel his strength in me. Whether it is a rough day at work, or when I’m just not feeling like myself…that little piece of tin reminds me that I am loved and cared for, that he finds me beautiful, and that I matter in his world.”

–TrueCourage– says that her biggest turn on is violence, which explains why impact play is her favourite thing to do!

“I love to be beaten.  I love the endorphin rush.  I love the feeling as your skin gets hot and starts to burn.  I love everything about impact play, and I really don’t think I could do without it! My inner masochist needs her fix!”

Asked to describe her favourite scene she replies, “I think the hottest scene wasn’t really technically a scene, but after the last Hellfire Club party Sir and I got a hotel room with a hot tub, and I discovered how much I truly love to have my head held under the water.”  There are still a few things she’d like to cross off her bucket list, including fire play and an MMF threesome. “If you’re interested, you know who to message!”

–TrueCourage– says her best trait is her open-minded and adventurous nature, coupled with honesty. If you want to get physical with her traits, she suggests her butt is a strong point!  If she could change one thing about herself, she’d change her feelings of insecurity. “I am always so scared of what other people will think that most times it stops me from living my life, and doing the things I want to do.  I don’t always live for me, but instead to look good in the eyes of others, and I truly hate that about myself.  The kink community is one of the few places I truly feel at home and free, and it has been an amazing stepping stone to help me be more comfortable, and break out of my shell!”

Since joining the kinky community, she’s learned quite a bit! The biggest piece of advice she would pass on has to do with the way you explore kink with others. She says, “Take no prisoners, and spare no feelings. If you don’t like something you are doing, don’t be afraid to make it clear!  Scream it from the rooftops! Don’t ever let yourself do something you’re not okay with.  Speak up and be heard…and if they (your play partner) don’t like it, fuck them!”

Aside from fantasizing about hot sexy violent fun (including rape fantasies), she loves to read and play video games on Xbox, as well as sing!